Sunday, September 19, 2004
why has it come to this?
after all the promises, stuff we said
were they just sweet stuff manufactured for our ears to hear,
for temporary satisfaction
to know that at least i would be in someone's mind
perhaps i would be considered special.
but those words never came to pass
it seems they never will
why has it come to this?
now all i have are memories
what have we come to, then?
mere acquaintances?
fair weather friends, is that it?
i don't want all of this
i'm not having any of it
i can't accept that things just end like that
accept that the hurt will just 'fade'
it never does.
it just comes back to haunt you
to taunt, and mock at all those times
when you thought this would never end
i don't want to end like this.
i just can't.
can't leave things hanging like a thread like this.
nobody knows what's going on.
and i just go around everyday with this emptiness
even if i do forget
it always resurfaces
it never goes away.
and at the end, i'm left with this awful feeling
so awful i just want time to stop
to rewind and go back to the past
i. just. can't. stop....
why has it come to this?
-blessed
12:26 AM
Saturday, September 11, 2004
sn choir clique rocks! this was at the NJ concert in feb'04.. hope e red eyes can't be seen yeah. :P 
-blessed
4:16 PM
pee club in 1st 3 mths :)
-blessed
4:14 PM
my grp in bremen!
-blessed
4:13 PM
J1s in folklore!
-blessed
4:12 PM
first the damned thing doesn't want to load my posts for me so i tried it like, only a thousand times. then today i try again and it finally loads and what nonsense, all 4 different drafts of the stupid post get posted up!!!!! and now my blog looks stupid and messy and so dammit cluttered up. dammit. k must try not to swear. DARN IT. rats. arghhhhhhhh. dumb blogspot.
-blessed
3:51 PM
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
Every day is so wonderful
Then suddenly, it's hard to breathe
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the pain, I'm so ashamed
I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down
So don't you bring me down today
To all your friends, you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Trying hard to fill the emptiness
The pieces gone, left the puzzle undone
Is that the way it is
You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring you down
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring you down
Don't you bring me down today...
No matter what we do
(no matter what we do)
No matter what we say
(no matter what we say)
We're the song inside the tune
Full of beautiful mistakes
And everywhere we go
(everywhere we go)
The sun will always shine
(sun will always shine)
And tomorrow we might wake on the other side
All the other times
We are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring us down
We are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring us down
Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down today
-blessed
9:55 PM
Saturday, September 04, 2004
ms lim praised me today!!
actually she praised all the soloists too. plus the choir din really sing that well.
butbutbut. im still happy!! haha.
was so scared for lark, but praise God, it turned out fine.
and before she started she asked if we were fine, and before i could respond she said, "amanda lim is fine, but how about felyna and yuru?" wahhaha. she got so much faith in me! :)
then right, when she got us to sing along before choir, we sang and she said i was zai!!!! wahh really very happy.
paiseh, can't resist blowin my own trumpet once in a while.
but the other 2 soloist parts were really bad. harder than mine man. so i guess sometimes its fortunate that i can sing high. :)
k lemme rem german phrases..
guten morgen: good morning
guten tag: good day
auf weidersen: goodbye
dankeshe: thank you
pitashe: welcome
plus a whole host of other phrases lippy n clement taught amanda teo but i never bothered to listen.. hehheh. :P
-blessed
10:54 PM
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